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Aug. 23rd, 2005
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Mini-mid-life-crisis or something...
Aug. 23rd, 2005 11:21 amWatched the series finale to "Six Feet Under" last night. OMG, I don't remember the last time I cried so hard. It was a really beautiful show... and such a great ending. I don't really know why it caused so much emotion in me... but seeing Claire drive off, following her dreams, while they flash to the future deaths of all the cast, just totally tore me up... Showing how even though she doesn't know where life will take her next, there's a lot in store for her and for her family, and they have a lot of living to do... they make it through the challenges facing them, they take a lot of chances and strive to live life fully... and they do. Moving to New York, with no job, she takes a chance, she sets out without knowing what will happen, but she does it.
It really struck a chord in me or something... Lately I've been having these feelings of "Is this all life has to offer?" Feelings like I want to just pack-up with Barry and move and start life anew somewhere else... To run away from everything and try my hand at something completely off the wall in New York City or Ireland or middle-of-nowhere-midwest or Maine or anywhere... I have yet to figure out the cause of this desire for drastic change... perhaps it is inspired in part by my parents' recent move to Georgia; perhaps I'm feeling bored with my job; perhaps my life is changing and I don't know how to do it in small steps (I just want it to be changed instantly)... I think there are a lot of reasons and a lot of things factoring in... and I'm just in an emotional state lately...
I came into the office this morning and walked past our little store in the building... Rudy was baking cookies and the smell wafted to my nose. Normally this would make me crave cookies and/or food... but today it had a different affect on me... for some strange reason, the smell triggered a memory... and memory of Disney World. Not a specific memory exactly, but just the smell of Main Street near the bake-shop, or Epcot's The Land food court, or not even a specific place, but my mind wandered instantly off to the Magic Kingdom... where dreams really do come true... Good god I feel like crying... I feel like I'm having a mini-mid-life-crisis or something...
It really struck a chord in me or something... Lately I've been having these feelings of "Is this all life has to offer?" Feelings like I want to just pack-up with Barry and move and start life anew somewhere else... To run away from everything and try my hand at something completely off the wall in New York City or Ireland or middle-of-nowhere-midwest or Maine or anywhere... I have yet to figure out the cause of this desire for drastic change... perhaps it is inspired in part by my parents' recent move to Georgia; perhaps I'm feeling bored with my job; perhaps my life is changing and I don't know how to do it in small steps (I just want it to be changed instantly)... I think there are a lot of reasons and a lot of things factoring in... and I'm just in an emotional state lately...
I came into the office this morning and walked past our little store in the building... Rudy was baking cookies and the smell wafted to my nose. Normally this would make me crave cookies and/or food... but today it had a different affect on me... for some strange reason, the smell triggered a memory... and memory of Disney World. Not a specific memory exactly, but just the smell of Main Street near the bake-shop, or Epcot's The Land food court, or not even a specific place, but my mind wandered instantly off to the Magic Kingdom... where dreams really do come true... Good god I feel like crying... I feel like I'm having a mini-mid-life-crisis or something...
Random Questions Meme
Aug. 23rd, 2005 01:12 pmYay... I finally found an active link to the random question generator... :)
( The Random Question Meme! )
( The Random Question Meme! )