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Four things for today...
Feb. 17th, 2005 03:50 pmA) Tired... so tired... so tired, that I think I need to consult a doctor about it. When is it that you should see someone professional? I think things are pretty bad when you almost fall asleep while your boss is talking to you one-on-one. Thankfully, I don't think she noticed... hopefully it just looked like I had something in my eyes and that my neck gave-way a little. It's not from lack of sleep, I had a full 8 hours last night.
B) Work... stress... a little bit stressed... there's a bunch of changes that they want me to do, but I can't get motivated to do them. I know that I should be happy with the changes, because it is making my tool more effective and useful and important to the company... but I just feel like I'm going to invest all this time and energy into it and that they won't use it. That has happened too many times in the past couple years and I'm getting sick of it. I always feel so "used" when something like that happens (I bust my butt for someone else only to have them turn around afterward and say "That was great, but we really don't need it now").
C) Party... party socialite... Everyone wants to go out and do stuff... I want to sit at home and watch TV. Am I changing? Am I getting old? Am I getting involved in a relationship and that's what's changing me? Do I need to force myself to keep going out? Feeling pulled in different directions...
D) Phone... changes... new cell... New cell phone is great... I canceled my old account today... very sad... I was with T-Mobile since 1997. I have no true reason to have stayed with them, but it was still sad to tell them I don't want their service anymore. I'm nervous because I don't know all the hidden snags that Cingular is going to throw at me... I've heard horror stories at work already from a coworker about all kinds of things they will try to get me to pay for (like internet and sounds and double billing minutes etc). I hope it all works out OK. At least I have minutes... Goodbye T-Mobile... hello Cingular.
B) Work... stress... a little bit stressed... there's a bunch of changes that they want me to do, but I can't get motivated to do them. I know that I should be happy with the changes, because it is making my tool more effective and useful and important to the company... but I just feel like I'm going to invest all this time and energy into it and that they won't use it. That has happened too many times in the past couple years and I'm getting sick of it. I always feel so "used" when something like that happens (I bust my butt for someone else only to have them turn around afterward and say "That was great, but we really don't need it now").
C) Party... party socialite... Everyone wants to go out and do stuff... I want to sit at home and watch TV. Am I changing? Am I getting old? Am I getting involved in a relationship and that's what's changing me? Do I need to force myself to keep going out? Feeling pulled in different directions...
D) Phone... changes... new cell... New cell phone is great... I canceled my old account today... very sad... I was with T-Mobile since 1997. I have no true reason to have stayed with them, but it was still sad to tell them I don't want their service anymore. I'm nervous because I don't know all the hidden snags that Cingular is going to throw at me... I've heard horror stories at work already from a coworker about all kinds of things they will try to get me to pay for (like internet and sounds and double billing minutes etc). I hope it all works out OK. At least I have minutes... Goodbye T-Mobile... hello Cingular.
