savage25 | Reflections on my date...

My date tonight went well. It wasn't my first "first date"... but I must admit that it sure did feel a bit unusual... picking up a date, going to dinner, taking him to the theater, and dropping him off with a farewell kiss in the car. Not "unusual" in a bad sense... just "different". I don't really remember the last "true date" I went on. I liked it and had a pleasant evening. Dinner was good, conversation was wonderful, show was amazing. I want to do more dating... I'm just not used to it... THIS is what I missed out on in high school when all the other guys were taking girls out for dinner and to see movies. I never did that... years and years of practice lost... and just now starting to feel like I'm a senior in high school (as far as dating experience goes).

I wasn't nervous at all. Which is a new step for me I think. I mean, I didn't get all sweaty and butterflies to the point of being sick prior to driving over to pick him up. I mean... it was like any other evening to me, I felt that comfortable. I think that's a good thing as I could be myself and hopefully was acting very cool and collected. I hope I didn't come across as too strong / confident a person... because I'm not... I need someone to take care of me sometimes. *hmmm*

Are we supposed to get swept off our feet like they always show in the movies? I know that's a stupid question, because that's movies... I didn't really feel swept... but, I had a great time and definitely want to continue the relationship. I don't want it to be just friendship, but I'm already feeling like it is... *puts hands on forehead and just kind of rocks for a little while*

So... in other news... The show... Ohh Muh Gaawd! I feel I cannot give enough praise to the Civic Theatre and all of the high school students who put on the school edition of Les Miserables. It was A-MAZE-ING! Absolutely wonderful. A-MAZE-ING! I cried, I laughed, I cried, I smiled, I cried. (I must have cried at almost every death scene... and there's at least five.) Some of those kids sang like Broadway actors. The staging and lighting was, of course, up to 19th Street Theatre's standards (awesome). I was just completely blown away by the caliber of the students.

Lee liked the show too. He was very complementary and so appreciative of me taking him to see it with me. I liked that about him. He even let me cry and not feel stupid.

Lee is a big guy. Heavy, yes, but that's not what I'm talking about... I mean he's BIG TALL... dominatingly tall and big... he barely fit in my front seat -- his knees and head had very little room... he's one of those guys that should definitely be in a truck... I don't know how to take it... it's interesting for me, being that I'm generally attracted to smaller cubs... I feel protected when I stand next to him though... I wonder how much his personality will match that protection though. (Will he be a guy that would take care of me and defend me?) After only one date, I don't have enough of a feel of him to know that yet. I guess that's the "beauty" of dating... taking it slow and finding things out about another guy. I know that it's OK for me to not think further in advance than our next date... It's supposed to be fun... but this being patient is tough... and why do I feel like I'm leading him on or something? I guess that's what has hindered me in the past... I don't want to lead a guy on, so I just dive in full... but I'm not leading him on, I'm learning about him. Ugh... I'm rambling...

Well... to end the evening... I came home and surfed LJ for a little bit... was going to write my journal entry and go right to bed... but then got wrapped-up in making some user icons for